Wednesday, August 10, 2011
A pang of regret for all of my hard work that was disappearing, one click at a time.
A tinge of shame at the realization that I had not been completely obedient in my picture collecting.
A wave of relief in knowing that, at some cost to my blog's "prettyness" factor, I was showing my love for my Savior by obeying the laws of the land.
Still, the bitter taste of sacrifice remains.
I find it fascinating that the Jewish diet consists of many bitter things. Horseradish, vinegar, and other less-than-sweet fare make up much of their ceremonial meals. This is to remind them of the bitter sacrifices they have made as a people, in memory of the history they have lived, and the things they continue to endure.
Why do we not drink or smoke or party or have fun (which of course is a misconception; Mormons can still party and have fun, providing the former two elements aren't involved)? Why do we pay 10% of our money to a church? Why do we spend so much time on Sundays and throughout the week at said church? Why would we give two years of this fun time in our youth to leave home, dating, college, and video games to talk to people about Jesus?
Don't we know that all those things we are leaving behind make us happy??
Now, sacrifice can be a hard principle to explain to those who have had no real acquaintance with it. How can giving up something we love be good for us?! How confusing!!
However, that is exactly what we teach to people. Not that you have to give up everything that makes you happy in life to join our church. But that through controlling ourselves and our desires, we gain mastery over our souls. That by sacrificing things we love, or loved, we learn what is truly important and gain a greater appreciation for what we have. And by giving up the material "things" of this world that promise happiness, we feel the true and lasting happiness that money simply cannot buy.
When we are truly willing to give all that we have, it is then that we will find who we are.
"He that findeth his life shall lose it, and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it."
He never said it would be easy, He only said it would be worth it.
(credits to Sister Emilee Cluff on her awesome pictures!)